Oh boy. This topic is one of the hardest for me to address because I myself struggle with it all the time, and maybe too often. Maybe that's why I decided to write about it. Because I suppose if I have this to refer back to, it will remind me to just let go. Ever since I can remember, I have been one to wear my heart on my sleeve. I love people, and when I meet someone who I instantly feel like I could be close with, my heart just automatically let's them in. Bad quality or good, I trust very easily. Even when I have heard or know otherwise. I'm the girl of apologies and giving chances. Most people know that, and some have definitely taken advantage. There have been times where I have felt like a person has literally broken my heart. I have felt pain beyond measure, wondering to myself how I could let go even though the other person already has. I could never imagine leaving someone I love. Let alone ever hurting them. Because when I love, I love with everything I have. But experience has taught me that time truly heals all wounds. I'm not one who lives regretting things in my life. Because I know I wouldn't be where I am today without those things. And I definitely would not be as strong. Even though I'm far from perfect, I feel like I don't need to change who I am. Sometimes people would tell me I need to stop being so trusting and stop wearing my heart on my sleeve, but just because people have hurt me that way, doesn't mean I'm going to change me. If people hurt me, or use me, that's their problem. Something they have to live with. There is nothing wrong with loving people and trusting people. Because that is just who I am. I decided I can let go of the things I can't control. And even though I still struggle with it at times, letting go has truly set me free and I am genuinely happy.
